Intro.

I am not exactly sure how to start this. I blogged as a teenager, but this feels very different for some reason. My intent with this project is for self healing and as a therapy tool for myself to work through a whole lot of trauma/topics. I am only sharing my thoughts and stories because I think it is important for others going through similar things to know they aren't alone. Here are some key things that I would like to state before we get started here:

* I am not doing this for attention or pity. I do not want or need anyone feeling sorry for me. Again, my intentions are only to hopefully heal by finally discussing some really intense topics that I haven't dealt with much.

* I will be very raw and honest. This means I will be cursing and discussing controversial as well as hard topics. These will include but will not be limited to: sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse and all of the above involving children, rape, domestic violence, abortion, drug use, crime,mental health, self harm, suicide, etc. Do not read if you have an issue with these things or are very triggered by such topics. THIS IS YOUR WARNING THAT THIS BLOG WILL BE VERY TRIGGERING!!!! I will not post on every single post to be careful before reading, I am hoping you will understand due to the purpose of this blog that such topics may cause you to face some hard things.

* Since I will be very raw and honest, you may come up in a post if you have been a part of my life for a long time or during a significant period. Please know that I do not intend to hurt any of you or shed a negative light on anyone. These are MY memories, MY stories, and ultimately MY perception of my life and how things have effected me. I hope by now I have created healthy enough boundaries with most of you to be able to reflect without there being any hostility and hopefully can only lead to your own healing journey (specifically looking at you mom, sister, and husband).

*Lastly, I want to point out that I am not an expert, a medical professional, or have any kind of training in anything that would suggest I am such. Please reach out to a medical professional if you feel you need to discuss your own healing/trauma and use the many many resources available. I am happy to recommend some, but do not take my words as a replacement for your own therapy. 

I think that about covers the basics. My life reads like a Lifetime movie, so be ready for lots of absurd and sometimes unbelievable shit. Bare with me as I figure this out and learn.